TMIT: My First Time

I was so nervous, I was shaking.

The thought of something being inside me like this made me made the shakes sharpen.

As I unwrapped it, my hands clammy, I looked down with amazement.

This is going to be inside me?

I followed instructions as I was told by friends, because they were my confidants.

I was older than most of you, I’m sure, so my age will be leftout for fear of judgment and humiliation.

I stared back down at the item in my hand, wondering what to do with it next.  After all, I never had a class on this kind of thing.  I’m sure no class would have prepared me for what was to come next, either.

I closed my eyes and hoped for the best.  As it slid inside me, it was all I could do not to cringe from the pressure that was mounting up.

And then . . . as quickly as my nervousness built up, it surpassed.

It was done.  It was in.  I shouted siliently to the gods for the miracle that pursued.

I had just inserted my first tampon.  But not without consequence.

When I began to walk, I started to realize that things were just a little . . . uncomfortable down there.  Then, just a short fifteen minutes later, I realized that it was not doing its job.  That’s right.  I had red spots on my jeans.

Horrified, I ran into the women’s bathroom.  Pulling the thing out of me was almost as bad as trying to insert it.

I bore down with pressure, trying to push it out like I had seen in movies that involved birth, hoping this would help alleviate some of the pressure.

Then, as I was explaining what was going on to my friend just outside the bathroom stall, she erupted into murderous laughter.

Confused.  Humiliated.  Aghast.  I asked her what was so damn funny.

Through the tears, she finally forced the words out of her mouth: “You forgot to take it out of its applicator!”

I stared down at the present I beheld in my hand, looking at it as if for the first time.  Then, due to my rage and embarrassment, I quietly began to laugh, too.

And that was my first time.

Note> No worries.  I have since learned how to properly use a tampon, thanks to those handy-dandy instructions they post on their boxes!

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